Wednesday, November 29, 2006 @2:25 AM
why am i up at this hour? i wanted to sleep early today. omg, i'm insane (as usual). i went to blog-hop (which is
RARE) i absolutely don't read blogs (it's just me) and especially with the temptation of ONE TREE HILL. oh yeah, i'm also emo-ing my morning away (so thankful my mother didn't catch me now and give me a scolding). felt pretty down for the past couple of hours as of now. perhaps pms? various thoughts keeps running through my mind about everything. just so messed up and i wanna yell/say it out to someone. and blogs are once again not that fantastic and i resorted to writing random thoughts in my phone. anyway went to gavin's blog and read his super old post (cause he didn't update) and i really share similiar thoughts with him, not really feeling much excitement from after a's. and chatting to szehui (which is another rare thing, cause half the time she is LAZY to reply me, some friend huh, kidding (: ), and she was talking about good taste friend working with.. lol. and also how i msg alot to fishball face (which isn't true and she just said it when she didn't look at my phone, smart garuda) then i suddenly rmb the unforgettable joy i experience when i was studying for a's. just don't feel that much nowadays :S seriously. the non-stop kfc meals with cheryl (with each meal she tells me how she wanna be a chicky club member which is for kids under 12, rather amusing) but i don't miss the coffeeshop which became ny's unofficial canteen. i miss the in-betweens of studying. just so indescribeable, and i am suddenly terribly missing those moments. feel a little cheered up once i recollect such memories and perhaps trying to crap online. it's 2.53am now and i don't feel too happy. perhaps i will wake up tml and not rmb all these f***ing irritating thoughts. yeah, that's usually the case.
keeping to myself caused me to break. sometimes it just falls downwith no controlwith no notification. it's becoming common (this year), that it's just one of the those days.
⥠lost for words and i drift.