Wednesday, September 28, 2005 @8:27 PM
I'm ignorant.
I've been pampered all these while.
I'm really glad i'm always have priviledges of sleeping in.
Why? I woke up at 5.10am today. And for the first time i took a gamble, i ventured out of the house at 5.35am into a
new world. One that have been oblivious to me for the past 17 years and 16 days.
Like a baby first opening its eyes, i open mine to the world i never knew today. I realized that some buses services actually start at 5.34am! And i thought to myself, the bus driver have to actually be there much earlier than us and chauffeur passengers around. And yes, there were actually passengers! People were off to work, and usually i would have been in bed, and even at 6.35am, i would beg for more sleep. I've been truly
pampered. As i walk to the bus stop, the breeze smelt fresh perhaps due to the little environmentally unfriendly vehicles. I reached the bus stop. I boarded 53. The atmosphere in the air-conditioned bus was cold and threatening. I don't know why, but i just felt that way. Then, i saw the another bus driver waving friendly towards another. I don't know why again, but i just had this warm feeling. Something that perk me up on this cold morning.
Strangers are often hostile to people whom they feel insecure around. Which (mostly) those they view as suspicious. One which i experience it yesterday whereby my friends and i labelled someone as suspicious. He was truly there with an ulterior motive. Another is today, where i made 2 "strangers" feel unsafe. This is because, i entered
pl grounds in my home attire. After staring at what i wore and clarifying i wasn't the student, the 2 teachers asked me to leave. I really do not blame them. I didn't bother to defend that i was an ex-student. It's not that i'm afraid, i just didn't want to make it a big thing. It's the same reason as why i didn't want to see those teachers i knew, i had no wish to tell the teachers i was here to deliver a present. Not because i'm embarrassed, not because i was afraid. I just want to keep things as simple as possible, no complications. Deliver and leave silently. Just like that.
Anyway, saw hou lao shi! haha, surprisingly she recognized me!
((: haha. super happy. but i know she has forgetten my name (coz i rememeber her telling us that she often forgets her ex-students' names but NOT their face)! haha.
I feel like a fool. I should have kept my mouth shut since i always blabber nonsense in the morning. I really can't think straight in the morning! my brain slows down by 50%! And I've truly become directionless today. It's not that i didn't know that the 156 bus stop is near the school! ): i feel dumb! haha.
anyway,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ANNABEL!! hahaha.
sorry didn't talk to you much! haha. we shall catch up after our exams okay? haha. (: and thanks for the belated present! super duper nice! i'm a
star!
⥠lost for words and i drift.
Saturday, September 24, 2005 @12:09 PM
Promos have officially FUCKED up my life :(
and why are people the way they are?!
Having a HARD time suppressing my thoughts!
$%#$^&^#^%$##!#$%@
IM ABOUT TO BURST!!!*please poke me! hopefully the stress will eventually leak out that hole.. nothing motivates me. i am so fucked up. studying has turn into a bore, a chore. someone please pinch/slap/shake/punch/kick the hell out of me. whatever, just do it! with only 4 and 1/2 days left to maths paper, i'm still fucking blogging. i hate my lack of self-discipline. i wish i can ask my mother to lock me in an empty room and make me study.
⥠lost for words and i drift.
Thursday, September 22, 2005 @12:09 AM
i re-
love GREEN DAY! i realized how much lovely the lyrics are. (: how could i have forgetten about them!!
haha, i'm lagging! there are mountains of maths, chem, econs chapters UNTOUCHED. what the hell is wrong with me? why the hell am i still blogging?
⥠lost for words and i drift.
Monday, September 19, 2005 @6:17 PM
i have a phobia of angmokio macdonalds. i will never go there anytime soon. haha. unless it's necessary and becomes surprisingly productive. i have gone there for 5 days straight!
with each time i go to angmokio macs, with each time productivity drops. it is like the graph y = 1/x , where x > 0 and the asymptotes are of y = 0 and x = 0. the y-axis represents the productivity. and the x-axis represents the no. of days.
i'm going to die a horrible death for promos. 10 more days, and i'm not even 1/8 into any of the subjects. can't count for the recent topics! damn, i hate myself.
⥠lost for words and i drift.
Sunday, September 18, 2005 @1:01 PM
oops,
DAPHNE, i am sorry! haha. i asked you to come online, because i thought the mooncakes were going to arrive at that time! haha. oops! haha. nevermind lah! haha. it won't kill you to have one less scandalous night! haha. will it? haha. SORRY LAH, the mooncakes will make up for it! even though there is only 6! hahaha.
hmmm, saturday.. haha. what did i do? haha. oh yes, stupid wednesday-thursday studying partner! you make me so worried for you! can you please work harder!! i'm really very worried lah! haha. you better score well for your last paper! i'm going to make sure you study! haha.
after studying, we went to find huiting at bishan park. hmmm, had the laugh of our days! even before meeting her, we actually visualise how she is going to be like! which surprisingly became the source of our entertainment! haha. anyway, i feel quite bad that i kept making fun of her! so, i shall say
sorry to her in my blog! haha. i will never suan you again!
⥠lost for words and i drift.
Friday, September 16, 2005 @12:43 AM
hmmm,
tuesday,
bloody econs tutorial. cheong like hell the previous night, doing the drq and the essay question. haha. pe! wahahaha,
basketball again. i made contact with the ball twice. i actually sweat.. wahahaha. hmmm, had chem lecture on alkenes. almost fell asleep. then had maths lecture, differentiation. the teacher really
s u c k. there is no better way than to describe her. how can she even be qualified as a teacher? anyway, i wasted the 3 1/2 hr break, didn't do much work. ): haha. then had
CHINESE! ah, got back the test results. i was quite happy i could pass. because i almost fell asleep during the test. got
83/170. hmmm, the zuowen still okay (surprisingly). it's that bloody paper itself! i think she (the
chinese teacher) was upset about my
chinese results. haha. coz when i went to correct my marks, she said in chinese, " (my horrible
chinese name), what happen to you ah?" well, quite shocked, coz i thought i did alright! haha. wahahaha, studied for maths. but half the time, was doing other stuff (playing guitar, playing with the saga seeds!)
hmmm,
wednesday, definitely more enjoyable than monday and tuesday. haha.
but had maths and econs test. hmmm, started off with gp. i have nothing to say, just that things more slowly in class and i can't hear anything except for the people in my table. then we had maths tutorial! haha. ((: curve sketching, a some last minute crash course in translation! haha. thanks mr neo. without you, our class will die! hahaha. after break, was econs drq,
demoralizing!
then had econs tutorial. surprisingly, jeeva did not pms (considering the two previous tutorials whereby she pms-ed and sent people out of the class).. haha, and
today, jeeva actually made one joke, and subsquently ruined it by saying the unnecessary. sigh, jeeva, you had it and then you lost it! haha.
for wage differentials, we were comparing between the occupation of a RUBBISH COLLECTOR and a TEACHER. we were arguing with jeeva that there is no reason why there is a difference in productivity between those 2 occupation. productivity can't be measured. she insisted that there is!
come on, it doesn't mean a rubbish collector is lowly-educated. for all you know, he/she WANTS (aspired) to be a rubbish collector. then she said some useful crap, and ended with
jansen has a PhD in rubbish collecting! wahahaha. then, today, someone (who doesn't want to be named) and i were discussing about this issue! first of all, jansen is
supply inelastic, because there is
only ONE person in the whold world who has this unique PhD. next, demand for this ONLY PhD rubbish collector is
demand inelastic, because he is
highly source for! (: this means, his
wage rate would be pretty high! and since all the rubbish collection firms in the world demand for or require his expertise on the ideal way to collect and collate the rubbish, he would most probably be in charge or own of all of them. thus,
rubbish collection would become a
'one-firm' industry => MONOPOLY. i find this extremely funny.
anyway, had maths test at 2.30pm! ah, the agony of maths test. mr neo bluff me, it's a difficult paper! and, the lt was aircon-less for 3/4 of the paper? what the hell was wrong with the teacher inside? she waited till the last 15mins before getting the aircon switched on! it was so f**king hot and it further stressed me out! ah, the paper was a flop. after that, we were depressed. so we went to cartel to vent on the
free flow of bread. then talk alot of crap and played a stupid game.. haha.
hmmm,
today, started off with chinese. well, nothing much lah. then chem lect. finished alkenes. haha. ate
wanton mee during break. the new vendor is really good. haha. FINALLY, some decent food besides the malay store and the jap store! then chem tutorial, electropotential, sort of get it. haha. the horror of electrolysis will begin tml! haha. jansen's and kimsoon's new names! jansen is
WILLIAM wow wah lao! and kimsoon is
FARQUAR heng f*** off! and together they form (unknowingly)
WILLIAM FARQUAR! it's actually better than GOLD and FISH. wahahaha. then principal's talk. then gp. damn gp. haha. the same things again, i only can help people in my table! haha. lots of stuff happen in gp, and jansen should just go and die! haha, then went home, bathed, napped. went to study at amk macs. started at 7.15pm. had one too many breaks. then left at 11 and reached home at 11.20. haha. it's productive! completed the tutorial on the introductory to organic chem. gain a little understanding of electrolysis with a great deal of help from gavin (my idol!). wahahaha.
⥠lost for words and i drift.
Monday, September 12, 2005 @8:44 PM
the attack of the mosquitoes (part one)thanks to huiting's bright idea yesterday. the four of us (weidin, kimsoon, her and me) had to fight the blood-sucking monsters! unfortunately, we lost.
i suffered from the most injuries. 10 bites on my right, and 4 on my left. i was
severely wounded. is the saga seeds worth the bites? i really do not know.
haha, today, i got
strawberry yanyan from dawn! wahahaha. i love strawberry sia. haha,
some nice, kind soul gave me the world's greatest present - she helped me
photocopy 2 pieces of paper! i was given a
pink bag. i knew nothing good could come out of it. but the thought was really there. i mean yah. inside the bag, contained
a blouse and a skirt. in other words,
kristal chan's worse nightmare. haha. it is not that the clothes is nice anot. it is whether i would ever
think of wearing of it. haha, well, anyway, i really really appreciate it! thanks guys! and, i got the second greatest present from philicia -
AIR! ((: thanks!
⥠lost for words and i drift.
Sunday, September 11, 2005 @11:08 PM
haha.
cheryl and wanwen (i think) made my dream to be an archaeologist possible! ((: haha.
i've a got dinosaur fossil and alien fossil! i can go dig! and brush! HAHA. ate swensons! haha. earthquake! haha. damn filling. plus french fries and rodeo wings! haha. cheryl is so
not clumsy, she spilled her cup of water all over the table! and onto my bag and now,
wanwen has a
wet bag!
the urge to dig and brush and hammer was unbearable. but the pile of homework scared me, so i couldn't dig, brush and hammer! SAD! ):haha, the econs pile remained untouched. i have comforted myself on the pathetic amount i studied for econs test. the worst thing is that i fail. i can sense a pretty lousy week ahead! damn. haha. tml's monday! and i'm pretty afraid on what's the 7 of them got for me tml! it better not be some girlish stuff. it better not be some clothes. i will bang the wall. i'm scared they will embarrass me with whatever they are planning to give me! haha. monday is damn stressful! one lesson after another! i want to get a nap tommorrow afternoon!
⥠lost for words and i drift.
Saturday, September 10, 2005 @9:59 PM
SURPRISE FROM THE CLIQUE! ((:
well, i thought i was going to be studying with elaine and wanwen only. but suddenly, at 10am, jasmin popped out. haha. i was surprised. i thought maybe she changed her mind about coming to study. well, then i got a little
suspicious! well, the whole thing came out quite well in the end. oh man, i wasn't expecting maybe szehui or vonne to come. SORRY. haha. but they did. everyone came!! oh my goodness, damn touched! thanks guys! haha. (:
coffee cake! YUMMY. haha.
then, i was blindfolded! ah! with my own towel! HAHA. tasting session! first one, something relatively hard and smelled bitter. i didn't want to eat it, but in the end, i ate it! YUCKS.
BITTER! eeee. then ate lemon.
SOUR! well, i refused to eat the
CHILLI! i could smell it! ah! scary. i didn't want to burn a hole in my stomach!
SPICY! haha. HONEY for
SWEET! haha. got not-so-hidden meaning! haha.
whatever my experiences are, SUAN TIAN KU LA, BTH will be there for me! ((:
cream smearing session! i smeared on wengs. wengs smeared it on elaine. then after awhile later, nessa smeared it all over my face! ah! oily. coffee-smelled kristal! sticky! plus i had just bathed! ): haha.
failed in studying much with huiting, kimsoon and weidin! got lots of econs to do! shall forgo doing econs promos mcq. just gonna do the essay and study for test. got pw to do! haha. going to cheryl's church tml. HOPEFULLY i will push myself in finishing the essay and study for labour economics! pw! i must remember to do!
anyway, i celebrated with my relatives. (: wore something which is not me, something i didn't like. well, i got
lots of guitar picks! haha. i requested for them, coz i lost my old ones. haha. my cousins are great. i feel damn guilty for not buying presents for them personally! haha. jaslyn drew me a nice card. joyce gave me such a unique card! i must find out from it.
scratch-and-win kind of card. i've got a
hippo from joanne! thanks! my brother gave me vcd. damn nice! haha.
⥠lost for words and i drift.
Friday, September 09, 2005 @8:09 PM
what a day. practically didn't study at all. ): i need to catch up on my tutorials! haha. i need to start my revision! there's so much to do and so little time. haha. and i feel helpless without my wednesday-thursday studying partner. i became hopeless in studying. haha. wednesday-thursday studying partner, you better study with me after your exams! i don't care! (crap. 99.9% you won't see this.) hahaha.
⥠lost for words and i drift.
Thursday, September 08, 2005 @9:59 PM
sa people really flocks everywhere. bummed into sa people two days in a row! haha. good luck? or is it bad luck? bad luck of course! not like any of them is going to read my blog.. so i guess i'm safe, won't get murdered! (: HAHA. okay lah, not that bad luck. saw alicia! super super long time never her already! haha. haven't seen philicia, chze ching and shirin for a long time. so quite glad i saw them at bishan macs, although never talk much too them. met baldwin there too when i was going out. haha. saw cheryl at amk macs yesterday too yah. haha. do you think i will bum into anymore sa people? i practically saw all the sa people i could possibly know!
hmmm, i finished vectors (II) tutorial! and for chem, electrode potential! haha. yahyah, i know i'm lagging okay. don't laugh. and functions tutorial too! but the last question damn difficult! haha, anyway, the bloody electrolysis is damn difficult! i don't understand!
MRS TAN, where are you!! haha.
tml got judo farewell lunch for coach cheryl. haha. cafe cartel. 12.30! haha. i've got nothing for her. paiseh. and i only left 10 bucks! haha. 20 bucks in 2 days!
⥠lost for words and i drift.
Wednesday, September 07, 2005 @11:08 PM
singapore has no good place to study. libraries are always packed. unless you go before it even opens to get ready to run in! me and maureen wasted 30mins naming places to study. we brainstormed
alphabetically, by the
north-south line, east-west line and north-east line, and
weird and impossible places (like Singapore Zoological Gardens, Jurong Bird Park, IMM, Raffles Place, Outram (NUH, NDC) and other unlikely places!) and we finally settled on one place (which shall be a secret, because i don't want anyone to stalk us! i know you all want!!) i admit it. i'm really stupid-er than maureen! why am i so stupid? why i give her the vital info! oh what the hell, i've been blackmailed to write a 2000-word testi! and i just finished it!
haha, i finally finished writing out neatly my 3-D trigonometry. i know i'm slow, but i can't help it. coz the other time, i wrote on rough paper. did till qn 4 of functions. pathetic! haha. i shall try to do more work tml!
⥠lost for words and i drift.
Tuesday, September 06, 2005 @9:34 PM
the world class way of naming fishes: (as done by jansen and jamie)1. Buy 2 gold fishes(a) name the
first one *drum rolls* GOLD!(b) name the
second one *drum rolls more* FISH!2. Buy 3 terrappins(a) name the
first one *drum rolls*TER!(b) name the
second one *drum rolls more* RA!(c) name the
third one *drum rolls until can't roll anymore* PINS!omg, i wonder what drives their
creativity, their
originality
! i could never have seen how they derive such names! they are practically ingenious! oh why don't i have their
intelligence,
wisdom?
i've never knew that fishes could be named so beautifully. oh, thank you jansen and jamie for englightening me. i bet no one can ever think of such names! haha.
⥠lost for words and i drift.
Monday, September 05, 2005 @6:40 PM
today's my chinese birthday. haha. had
CHINESE TEST! the
horror of it! haha. i think it's really worse than the previous test. i almost dozed off lah. i was super super distracted. thinking about lots of other stuff. omg,
do you know what motivated me?? i thought to myself,
the faster i finish the paper, the faster i can go and sleep! haha.
after chinese, went to bishan kfc with some of my classmates [weifang, huiting, rebecca, samuel, kimsoon, weidin and me] for lunch. haha. when ordering my food, i heard someone shouted out
VERY FREAKING LOUD "DON'T BE SO RUDE!!" it was this middle-aged guy shouting at the ri boy! omg, i thought it was his father or smtg, or maybe even his teacher. but it wasn't. it was just because the ri boy pushed him ACCIDENTALLY. omg, he's a real HOT TEMPERED DUDE! still say wanna SUE him for assault?? exaggerating?
HAIR CUTS!! kimsoon and weidin went to get a haircut! haha. totally different look! hope they know how to wax their hair tml properly! haha. it cost $23 bucks! the most expensive haircut they got in their life! LOL. haha. but they look real good! haha. then we went to mos to drink ice milk tea! haha. and talk for damn long, till 5pm? what the hell, time was really wasted. but fun sia.
⥠lost for words and i drift.
Sunday, September 04, 2005 @4:02 PM
hmmm, saturday.. i can't believe that we were asked to assemble at CHANGI at 7.30am but the whole event started off at 9 am? what the hell. standing there for half an hour is tiring too! damn. walked all the way the whitesands?? it is definitely not 3.5km. sweating like hell. took 88 home! OMG, single deck! the agnoy of a single deck! WHY OH WHY? haha. it was so freaking HOT! couldn't nap at all! sighs.
saturday night was a real waste of time! and an embarrassment!
sunday, i really wasted it! watch tv for like 5 hours?? i'm dead.
⥠lost for words and i drift.
Friday, September 02, 2005 @8:53 PM
i have learnt something interesting about
huiting. i never knew that her leadership post in peirce secondary school was that high. i never knew that she's so much better than me! she was in student council (in other words, prefectorial board)! and guess what's her post was! OF ALL POSTS! haha.
HEAD OF DISCIPLINE! if she can discipline others, i really have nothing to say! but since she got the post, she must have earn it. thus, i will learn to
respect her more from today onwards. (:
hmmm, well, i finally got myself to buy the pe shirt. because i
DO NOT want to be the odd one in the WHOLE NY tml (at
unearthly hours -
7.30am, plus it's at
CHANGI!) during the
yellow ribbon walk. anyway,
there was only ONE SIZE left! just my luck!
size 42! now, my pe shirt can serve in a few purposes, for school physical activities, my once-in-a-blue-moon saturday exercising AND pyjamas!!i almost died in maths differentiation lecture. i can't believe that the maths hod don't teach us the important chapters - functions and differentiation. i almost had a heart attack when the trainee teacher opened her mouth. i had the tendency to shut off my mind. it was the longest 15mins of the week.
tml is going to be a tiring day! waking up early to walk 3.5km! perhaps go to the food fair with the class. and have to tahan till the night!
⥠lost for words and i drift.
Thursday, September 01, 2005 @10:02 PM
wednesday.
went back to pl! can't believe i sit through mrs lee's speech again! lol. i find something pretty meaning. she told us,
never to consider ourselves
EX-PL LITES! because
once a pl lite is always a pl lite. (i feel so elaine-ish, loyal to the school!) after thinking through, i really believe it
(but i wasn't that crazy to go sing the theme song "Find Us Faithful" on stage!). another thing, she thanked the students for the performances [with all the "we love you, teachers"]. she said that, the students are the ones that make teaching wonderful. i really miss my teachers! and secondary school life!
haha. ms kaur is a MRS now! she's pregnant! sadly, didn't talk to much teachers. i hate myself, why i never go and find them! maybe because i had nothing to give them. damn. and despite her friend's warning, i ate melissa png's brownie! (: because i'm covered with medical insurance. luckily, i didn't get food poisoning!
went out with annabel. (: and studied at mos. got chased out at mos. bloody aunty.
failed attempt to have fun at 5 plus 6. carried my guitar around through angmokio. rushed through my dinner in less than 10 mins. completely waste of my time. only fulfiling thing, i got my
yan yans - vanilla (szehui), strawberry (jasmin) and chocolate (nessa)! had 45mins of guitar rehearsal. not too bad.
thursday.
woke up at 8.38am.
we were suppose to meet at 10.30. well, obviously everyone (nessa, bel, cheryl and jas) was late. only me, wanwen and elaine was early. and sadly, the zoo outing is
postponed to 9 september. (
by hook or crook, jasmin.. elaine and i promise you, we will go to the zoo. be it if it's the 3 of us)
jasmin, real sorry that you couldn't go with your other friends, real sorry you had to cancel out on your friend and you didn't go to the zoo. anyway, cut cake at kfc. we just embarrassed ourselves lah. haha. arcade-d. it wasn't really fun.
kiddy ride-d. elaine had a HORSE. cheryl had a ultra mini motorcycle! i had something distorted (too horrible to be imagined). we ACTIVATED it you know. what the hell, mine was
JERKY. not worth 20 cents! wahahaha.
went back to my place. me, elaine and jasmin. (:
pictionary-ed ourselves to death! haha.
jasmin is COOL. i am SPONGED. and elaine is a (jaundiced) MONSTER! JASMIN COMPLETED THE BOARDGAME. i kept getting like 5 or 6 when i am like 3 or less steps away. ended up being further away from the board. ELAINE can't draw.
she and her fat, distorted drawings! haha. after being bored of drawing, we did the talking one. haha. jasmin can describe. elaine is just plain lousy at this. well, then we looked
our photos! and the
videos!
TODAY IS FRIDAY WHEN GOOD THINGS HAPPEN! the
BUILD ME UP BUTTERCUP video! and the dumb ass forgetten lame shit
WATERMELON video. we took LOADS of pictures! haha. 3 of us lying around. me and fat face HOR elaine?? haha. jasmin couldn't believe she sound weird on video. so we decided to record our voices! haha. in a short conversation, elaine practically said 20 over AYEs! haha. poor ears of ours! haha. hearing the recordings is real funny.
really enjoyed my day with you guys!watched kindergarden cop and didn't do chinese, chem or maths! I AM STUPID! tml must pass up! and instead of doing the remaining 3/4 of my summary, i got tempted to BLOG! wah lao!! haha now, it's 10.30. okay! i better finish this up and go and sleep! sleep is important to me!
⥠lost for words and i drift.