HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY DAPHNE!

and in 1 mins time,

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY DAWN!

wahahaha, guess what? i'm older than you guys! (:

daphne, my nursery friend. i have seen her everything and she has seen my everything (when we were in primary school) :P haha, hmmm, daphne, i hope you tell me about your *ahem* life in US soon! you never to update me! ): hahaha, you are older now! please mature! mature more than me! lol. well, hope you have a great birthday!
dawn, my current classmate, misfortune i think. haha, oops. *prays she doesn't see this* hmmm, dawn is pretty. dawn is smart. dawn is a good mediator (quote from weidin). dawn is wise. dawn is impartial. dawn has FAIR CONDUCT! wahahaha. hahaha, hope she has a wonderful day tml!

hmmm, today was alright. met up with cheryl and wanwen for awhile in the morning. catched a little. wanwen managed to redeem hotcakes with her points and treat us. lol, and cheryl and her hashbrowns. haha, cheryl didn't wear her church shirt, or worse, the forbidden one - the sa shirt! well, i went to thomson plaza later.


hmmm, the fear of lizards! someone i know has this particular fear.
she has the urge to want them to disappear from the face of the earth! wanting them to die a horrible death!

rational or irrational?


fears.
something that everyone has.
you can have one fear, or you can have many fears.
fear is a strange thing, it can make one do the things you would't never do.
fear can be about something you can see/touch/hear/smell,
yet it could be something non-existent.
it can be a fear of a small object/creature/THING, or fear of a larger object? it can be anything.
rationality of the fear? it could be based on anything. for some, is it based on something logical? does whatever you fear of even exist? it is actually based on the person's mindset, his or her views!
the person who fears something will always think that their fear is rational.
hmmm, i realized that one cannot judge someone else's fear. why? to you, the fear might seem ridiculous, however, to the one who fears, it has all reasons for the fear to be fearful.
thus, how fearful is your fear? - this statement is invalid. because you can never judge one's fear!

♥ lost for words and i drift.

got our results back! ): sfivebees is the worst in the whole science batch. i feel i let mrs tan down! and all our teachers! but nevermind, we will work hard and thrash the rest! (: honour roll, make space for sfivebees!!

hmmm, didn't go gym! should have! i'm getting fatter by the day! ):

but, there was the JELLY SHAKER! ((:

WHO did it: weidin the man!
WHAT did he do: test our ability to withstand his strong force!
WHEN did he do it: 5 plus 6 pm today (28/10/05)
WHERE did he do it: Springfield Rise nearby playground! on the SEE-SAW!
WHY did he do it: see if we could balance or FALL!
HOW did he do it: when we were at the highest point above the ground while on the see-saw, he SHAKE the whole thing!

♥ lost for words and i drift.

the day i felt enthusiastic about training => the day things weren't exactly what i had in mind.

first of all, before the training even started, i was arguing with valmond, he's so irritating! he keeps harping on something that is not even significant! then when i was shifting a mat, at the same time when i argued with him, i gave a pull. and, it bent my left thumbnail! OUCH! okay, i thought it was nothing, just bend the nail only right? but my weak thumb started bleeding!! wth, had to go and wash it and put PLASTER? haha, it baffled me how to stick the plaster, it is internal bleeding of my puny thumb after all.. it's all valmond's fault lah! he must keep mentioning the stupid thing, which isn't important!! haha, or maybe it's my fault, my nail abit long? hahaha. STUPID WAY TO INJURE MYSELF!

the first half an hour of our training seemed FOREVER! and it was only WARM OUT! but it killed me! i was flat out tired! of all days to train our physical, I HAVEN'T GOTTEN INTO SHAPE YET! i could barely jump, or maybe i couldn't at all.. ): my plaster fell off! i couldn't find it, so grabbing for rendori later became a real problem. PAINFUL! nvm, then free rendori! smtg that i thought it was quite slack, coz you can sit down and rest when it's not your turn. i played with shiyun, and somehow or anot, my knee got into the way (at her back) when she was doing the one-arm shoulder throw. and she pulled with all her might, and my knee was numb for a short period of time. thank goodness i didn't sprain! i will be so sad! :P sad lah, i can't do my two-arm shoulder throw or anything coz i had a hard time twisting my leg. i am weak! hahaha.

i want to get a GREEN belt, i want to choke people! neck lock! arm lock! haha, kidding! i think getting an orange belt would be a problem alr!

♥ lost for words and i drift.

i should blog about my week before doing the oral presentation (op) slides, because i'm sure that once i start on op, there is no ending.

the week passed so very quickly and quietly. mostly, my week revolves around written report. project work drains the life out of me. it sucks the sense of humour out of me. yes, i have a sense of humour, or at least i had one. ):

hmmm, i got my promos results back on monday. passed all! haha, scraped through gp and chinese! yay!! yup, tuesday, couldn't get back into the studying mood? who could? haha, ended up not listening to any of the lectures, just blindly copying stuff into any blanks that needed my G2 pen to fill in. hmmm, wednesday, was a bad day. major regrets for the econs lecture! shall not elaborate on that depressing matter. haha, had gp lect in the afternoon. hmmm, nothing i can say about it. well, suddenly thursday came, well, ended pretty early [12.00pm] , since no gp tutorial. BUT, samuel was sick so didn't come to school, and jolene was uncontactable, plus the com labs were full, so i decided to let marisca off. i sound fierce? haha, so i slack for the 5 hours till training! haha, i want to sleep, instead, go play around with some judo people in the mpr. haha, valmond tried to teach me harai goshi, and it's the most painful fall i have ever fallen, haha, okay, that's exaggeration. well, my stamina is really the lousiest it can ever get. training was pretty light, but i felt like shit. came home at 8 plus, ate, bathed. then pw-ed my way till 2am! what the hell right? haha, but i slacked in the middle lah, cause was waiting for pw mates to edit first.

anyway, today was the final submission for written report. the amount of paper we waste on a project idea that most probably would never be done. so much for participating in any recycling activities. we have to print two copies of (31 pages times 2!) and have a soft copy! a sense of relief after our written report was handed in, no more worries for written report. BUT, op is coming my way now! ): haha, my eyes wanted to close, but my brain refused to feel tired! the hall was a great place to rest, if only i had longer shorts, then i would take out my skirt and sleep however i like! well, the rest of the day was routine..

and i'm off to do op slides, you will never hear from me again (for the time being lah)!

♥ lost for words and i drift.

hmmm, i've recovered from the lack of sleep on friday. haha. i slept for 2 hours odd max.

friday - pasir ris chalet.
by the time i reached there, it was like what.. 9pm? and it's not my fault, i could have been there 2 hours earlier okay. but i was so responsible, so i bought back dinner for my lazy brother and my grandfather. hahaha, my stupid brother wanted to make my grandfather buy dinner back again. then, i waited for weidin, and we took a train down to yishun and took 39 to pasir ris. i thought it was directly there lah, that's why i followed them, or not i would have taken 58. haha, oh nvm, it's over. no regrets! :P

haha, so when we reached there, we bought more food, and bbq at the next pit. and some idiots spied on us! and when we were at the midst of the bbq, they came and tell us, they needed THEIR pit at 10pm? they alr saw us setting up the fire, why didn't they tell us earlier? bastards. we decided to wait till they come out before clearing. but NO, the fucking bastards went to complain to the management. the management came and told us to clear it, so we did. we aren't angry with the management, they are just doing their jobs. argh, usually, people would just use the next pit, but NO, they must complain! not to mention, they are bloody cowards! after they complain, they closed the curtains, so afraid that we know they complain. i wish i could tell them, stop being assholes. if you dare to complain, dare to face those you complain. COMPLAIN WITH PRIDE! then they actually peek through the curtain. we were saying, let's just stare at them. and jansen, being jansen, STARED at them for us. and when i say they are cowards, they really are. haha. they IMMEDIATELY draw back the curtains and switched off the lights. what happen to use that pit? felt like scolding them. or knocking on their door, telling them, hey, SORRY WE USED YOUR PITS. hahaha. we kept laughing lah, because it was damn comical to see them draw back the curtain... hahaha. oh man, thinking back about it, i still can laugh my head off!

haha, nothing much happen after that.. sleeping, hmmm, had trouble sleeping. couldn't sleep. 2 plus we went to bed. haha, i'm quite lucky i got the bed. :P stared into the ceiling, although it was just blur, given my poor eyesight and the room was dark. hmmm, in the middle of the night, someone came and slept next to me. hahaha, don't ask me who, because i have no freaking idea. i couldn't see! haha, all i know was, the person a girl, long hair, and her shirt have white stuff on the side. haha, screw my eyesight. anyway, i slept with one leg on the wooden frame. then it started to get cold, so i used my class tee as a blankie. hmmm, i think i kept sniffing, so the mystery lady/woman gave me a blankie. hahaha, but this mystery lady/woman left after awhile, maybe because of the sniffing. haha. felt bad she can't sleep on the bed. haha, oh well, don't know why i'm such a light sleeper when i don't sleep at home! haha, kept waking up! so overall, i estimated, around 2 plus hours of sleep!

woke up at 7.05am? what the hell, stoned for like a long time. then went with weidin to buy breakfast - a breakfast that no one ate! ): bought peanut butter, cheese and bread lah! but why they don't eat? haha, nvm, it was nice! AH, my arm was superbly pain, and so was my backside and upper back! no one massage for me my back! ): breakfall-ing is fatal when you do so many times in the row! haha, my left palm was actually shivering for the first hour after doing all those breakfall-ing! and then it was numb for the whole night! all those carrying of the mats, after such a long time of not exercising, caused my arms to ache like mad! haha, anyway, slack my ass off till 11. then went to eat lunch? wth, so early. haha, then went home! haha, reached home at 1 smtg. slept on the bus, smtg i have never done before in my life. i mean really sleep, i didn't even know jansen and jamie drop down the bus? hahaha, anyway, i went to BATHE first despite the sleepiness i felt. haha, had to get rid of the bbq smell! haha, i was superbly dirty! then, i went to sleep, from 2 plus to 7 plus! haha, ate dinner. then watch tv till 9.30! haha, the D3: THE MIGHTY DUCKS! haha, ice hockey looks cool, damn professional! (: then watch vcd till 11 plus!

slept till 9.30 today! haha, felt recharged, but my body still aches! ate breakfast. watch tv till 1pm, ate luch. then bathe! hahaha, slack like hell! haha, it's raining like hell. what a nice day to sleep, but, not gonna sleep..

damn shit, i made a long list on sunday on the stuff i would complete in the 4 days, and frankly, i didn't do anything, only take care of my brother and was punctual! ): haha, instead of buying a new wallet and slippers, i bought a new bag (which i needed lah) and a t-shirt! ARGH! i haven't buy the belated birthday presents! oh man, when will i have the time to go out? ): tml getting results! death time: 1.30pm - 4.30pm after that, still got training! damn, this marks the starting of a vigorous training till mid dec hols. i don't seem to have enough time! written report, oral presentation, things seems to be piling up. this could be because i have slacked my ass off these 2 weeks, relaxed like mad!

♥ lost for words and i drift.

haha, in the morning, i quickly burn a cd of my some of my favourite songs, and brought out lp in texas cd plus mcr (which is unfortunately not mine). today feels weird. haha, for once in don't know long, i didn't have to apck my bag, and hence i wasn't late. usually, i always need to pack my bag, decide damn long where to put my ipod and handphone so that the keys won't scratch them, and make sure that they are in a cushioned space so that if i drop my bag, it won't ko-yak later. after all these, then i'll leave. maybe that's why i'm always late. but today is especially sad. i left on time, and reach on time. WHY SAD? because i felt damn uncomfortable on the bus. maybe due the fact that i was holding my discman in my hands along with my handphone (try not to picture me doing it, please). my keys and wallet were bulging out in a pathetically small pocket. someone said, why didn't you bring a smaller bag? hmmm, maybe because i didn't have one? hahaha, oh what the hell. after that, my discman and and the other cds i brought seek refuge into someone's bag. :P HAHA.

hmmm, today, i practically did nothing. my brain didn't function at all. haha, i never knew wasting time outside doing nothing was actually relaxing to the soul. hahaha, yah, i accompanied maureen and studied, since she did the same for me the other time. repaying my debt, lol. nah, i would have done it anyways. (: wahahaha, we visited 3 fastfood outlets, wth, macs, kfc and bk! hahaha, and lemon tea myself to death, then i felt damn queasy. haha, and maureen is a toilet machine. haha, the ratio of her visiting the toilet to me visiting the toilet is 6:3. oh my goodness! haha, does she have so much pee???

♥ lost for words and i drift.

things started off rough, but it turn out better, but not for long.. took 13 to east coast with kimsoon, weidin and rebecca. we were all at east coast. rented bikes at $6 per hour, and got the second hour free. we started teaching jansen and rebecca how to cycle. haha, they learnt to cycle. the only achievement of the day! haha. they are fast learners, compared to us. eventually, for the last 45mins, we left to cycle around east coast. then kimsoon and weidin got back first, he called me, saying all stuff were gone. i really thought he was kidding. and as i was cycling back, my heart pounded, my mind raced, shit, please not let my bag get stolen! my beloved stuff are all in there. ARGH. and yes, our bags got stolen. at that point of time, i really wish that someone shouted out, "haha, can't believe you fell for that joke!" damn, but no one did it. it's all my fault, i shouldn't have thought it was alright to leave the stuff there. fuck, i'm sorry, guys.. me, kimsoon, weidin and rebecca were the only ones who brought bags, and we lost them. but lucky we got our handphones and wallets with us. except for jamie, she didn't bring her bag, and left it in kimsoon's bag. but anyway, she wanted a new handphone right? fuck, what a bloody way to comfort myself. anyway, jansen is the only lucky bastard lah, lose nothing! haha. screw those thieves. damn, we couldn't search or anything. we can't go and search the surrounding garbage bins right??? all we could was sit and sob at our losses. even if we make a police report, what the hell can they do lah? haha, so we didn't make any reports, coz waste our time?? one thing is quite ironic [don't know if used the correct term], the other day, we managed to see someone stealing, yet today, we forgot about the lesson we learnt from it and became the victims.

damn, what a fucked up day. damn, i lost my ipod with the orange sock. i almost wanted to not bring it today! why did i bring it? stupid!!! my bag, ah! it has that HOLE, brings back memory.. haha. ): and i lost my favourite black and red shorts, which is quite well-known to those who know me. and my shirt! haha, the black aloha shirt! i want to cry, that shirt has many memories! i lost my keys too! shit. hahaha, damn. it was kimsoon's ONLY bag. haha. kimsoon lost his mp3. and his favourite black nike shirt! haha, famous to us all! haha, and some shorts. and my extra ear piece! ah! haha, it's okay. then rebecca lost her hp ear piece and.. *drums roll* UMBRELLA! weidin lost his only bag! containing the most valuable NY TIE! haha, and his clothes. haha. really peifu him, he damn kan de kai? not like me, keep mentioning it! haha.

ARGH, i vented out my anger by telling people, hitting things, swearing, and now, blogging! now, what i really want to do is, to throw sparklers up in the air at bishan park, with all my strength! i really want to use up all my energy! damn the thieves, stuff that are worthless to them (but worth alot to us) also steal? wah lao!!! my mother told me it's alright, be thankful that i have my handphone and wallet. i guess, yah, it's something to be thankful for, for all of us. she says, it's good that i lost my bag, because it's time for me to change it! wah, how could she say such a thing!

after that, we just went to parkway and ate food court. then, we were talking about how jansen is SO HANDSOME, that the vendor would be too DISTRACTED and cook the food overdone and burnt. haha, then jansen said, "oh, no wonder last time huiting cooked the egg like that." wahahaha, burst out laughing!! hahaha. thick-skinned shit sia. haha, 9.20pm we were at the bus stop. all of us took 76. i didn't want to take 13. all alone, with no music, it's a killer. so i took bus with them. haha, so we took ULTRA long time to go home. we reached amk big mac center at 10.15pm? haha, waited for that ugly shit, jansen to come (he went to send jamie home).. coz he wanted to take bus with kimsoon. guy still like that? hahaha, idiot. haha, because we were sending rebecca home (her house is super dark), we waited for jansen, because he didn't know how to go to rebecca's house on his own. first of all, he never been there before. secondly, even if he did, he's a direction idiot, so we won't trust him. so we wait for him damn long, miss 4 buses. after he came, the buses refused to come lah. haha, in the end, by the time we send rebecca home, we reached the bus stop at 11pm. haha, can you imagine? we took 2 hours, and we were still not at home?? haha. damn funny lah, keep disturbing jansen. haha, so somehow, didn't feel as pek chek about the whole incident as before. haha. yah, in the end, reached home at 11.30pm. shag as hell.

♥ lost for words and i drift.

I AM FREE! haha, my parents left for the states this morning! :P haha, now, i have no curfew! hahaha, except perhaps for my lil brother will bugs me worst than my mother? wth right! actually, i won't be THAT free, i must do so many household chores! ): haha, must buy dinner back on some days, i must be a responsible kid. i can't bully my ah gong!

things i hope to accomplish in the next 4 days:
(a) hmmm, be responsible, and do all the household chores and take care of my brother unwillingly! ):
(b) be punctual every time i go out! ((:
(c) buy slippers!
(d) buy WALLET! (mine is getting real dirty and the coin section is failing me)
(e) buy someone a belated children's day present by wednesday.
(f) buy another someone a kiddy ride to cheer her up!
(g) buy really belated birthday present x2! :P
(h) if i still have money to spare (which i seriously DOUBT) i want to buy JEANS. (:

hmmm, i'm stuck at home today. what a day to celebrate. hahaha.

(edited at 21:11)
i have to put up with my brother's nonsense. it's in his nature to irritate me. thinking back, my mother always complain about me not spending enough time with my brother. sure, i stay at home. and he has fucked up my mood. this is not the first time. tell me why does she want me at home to PLAY with him? can i just shut myself off with my music at home? my brother has to irritate me everytime at home. he's throwing a bloody tantrum. he is insane. and i don't feel like yelling at him. nothing works with him. if i start scolding him, he might go with the crying approach, or the see-who-can-yell-louder approach! scolding him will only lead to one thing - he will complain to my parents when they call back, and i'll be bloody lectured. the phrases they used are always the same, "can't you put up with him?", "why are you so short-tempered at home and when you are with your friends, you aren't?", "can't you learn to talk nicely?", "be the elder one, learn to be the one who stops.", "why can't you control your temper?" and "give way." damn, i'm sick of all these. i have plenty of things to rebutt them with. but it just seems pointless after telling them so many times. ARGH. i can't stand this. why can't he just listen to me? i will not irritate me, and he can do the same for me. this is madness! ONE WHOLE WEEK WITH HIM. i will go crazy!!! i can fortell a lousy week for me. damn, next week was suppose to be good and relaxing.

♥ lost for words and i drift.

The pain is almost unbearable. It feels like the acid is eating through the walls of my stomach. Or maybe it truly is acid burning my stomach walls. Is it indigestion that caused it? Or lack of meals? My stomach had been growling ever since 5am. Where is my mummy when i need her?

Hmmm, how shall i start to describe this faithful day. haha, after econs paper, we met up in the afternoon, around 2 plus. bought some tidbits, and played some games, and watch some tv. Then ate thai express for dinner at a rather odd timing, 5.30. The start of an irregular diet. Haha, rot the remaining time by SHOPPING at heeren. my FAVOURITE hobby :) then went to cine to buy CUTE stuff. Then watch the last episode of the 9pm show! :P Haha, and drank stuff... Caught the 12.05am movie. Into the blue sucks. Supper at 2.30am. The continuance of the irregular diet. Haha, i've officially spent 50 bucks. 3 plus 4 am, i couldn't take the drowsiness, i slept for an hour on the comfy sofa bed. I departed from it, and spent the remaining might sleeping off and on for perhaps a couple of hours more. HAHA, okay in all, i slept for 3 hours odd. Then the pain started! fucking pain didn't go off.

anyway, we ate BRUNCH, some jap food. then SHOPPING for eternity i tell you! wth, huiting and sally are shopping machines! haha, the guys (xinli, samuel and kimsoon) and i couldn't take it. maybe due the lack of sleep we had. and maybe also because huiting and sally slept on a comfortable bed! hahaha. walked and shopped. hahaha. kimsoon has an ah pek taste!! hahaha. went to far east lah, hahaha, saw philicia and chze ching. stupid chze ching is deaf. never hear me! i feel hurt!! hahaha. anyway, they finished their promos as well. haha, hmmm, didn't want to probe how badly they assumed theirs was. it can't be as bad as mine what! hahaha.

♥ lost for words and i drift.

hmmm, promos ended.

feelings, hmmm, surprisingly none.

anyway, the one-hour econs mcq was a horror. the "little rectangular boxes" continues to haunt me. the numbers 40 and 19 kept staring at me. my whole body shrugged upon seeing the "little rectangular boxes". and i felt extremely warm. my brain strained itself, trying to recall about bloody chem. i couldn't think straight, i was "paralysed" for a few seconds. i tried to focus on econs. nothing helped. the constant flashblacks kept distrupting my flow of thoughts. ARGH. not to mention, i had to breathe through my mouth due to the blocked nose i had. i couldn't clear it, firstly, no time and secondly, everyone will know i'm clearing my nose, maybe because it's loud? and for the first time, i am nervous during an exam. damn. plus my mother had to say "do well for econs today". at that moment, "it's-okay-to-screw-econs" thoughts vanished with a "poof"sound. hahaha. oh what the hell, screwing for the papers seem to be a normal thing for me these two days. econs drq is really screwed up. it would be a miracle if i managed to even pass. PLEASE LET ME SCRAPE THROUGH THIS.

anyway, it's over. hmmm, today, i shall play my heart out with the sfivebees. :P hmmm, stayover! (: let the FUN we will have purge out all of our worries, unhappiness, frustrations and other lousy feelings we might have! haha. let us only have nice feelings! (: i'm gonna be a happy person.

if my addiction to you is a crime,
i'm gulity of it.
i should be arrested,
because i shouldn't feel this way.

♥ lost for words and i drift.

the way i did the chemistry mcq today spells out stupidity and careless. but, it is mostly stupidity. you may try to comfort me. or you may not. but i know that i am really stupid. HOW CAN I POSSIBLY MISS ONE QUESTION? question 19 is stabbing me in the heart, so softly and yet so painfully. i'm not upset over that mark. trust me, i wouldn't. something else far worse worries the hell out of me. did i shade question 20 onto question 19's "little rectangular box" and subsquently the rest onto the wrong question's "little rectangular boxes"? or what i want now is that i didn't do the above and i just missed it and left question 19's "little rectangular box" blank. and why don't i know whether i did either of the above? that's because of my carelessness. ever since primary school, i have check the OTAS sheet at least twice. check if i did all the questions.. check if i ended at question 40. check if the answers on the OTAS sheet corresponds to the booklet.. BUT for some bloody reason, for the first time in my life (a little exaggeration), i didn't even look at it after doing it. perhaps i was anxious about the paper 2? perhaps i had something on my mind (like perhaps they were going to bloody announce the answers to the mcqs)? perhaps the mucus clogged up my brain and causing me to not think straight? the thing is, i had the TIME to check it, but i didn't! how much bloody time could i take to check if i did 40 questions? AH! i wished they didn't announce the answers to the mcqs, then i wouldn't fret over whether i shade the right "little rectangular boxes". it's killing me! if i really shade wrongly from question 19 (which i am 70% sure i did), i would really lose a lot of marks. i could have gotten fairly good marks. but, i've gotten a special grade for chemistry mcq - SC, which stands for stupidly careless. i'm truly frustrated over this!

the way i did the chemistry short answer (paper 2) was utterly disappointing. the paper isn't difficult. the questions is there WAITING for me to fill up the correct answers. but somehow i just can't seem to answer them correctly. gas pressures question, the marks just flew by me. i guess i should have looked at the lecture notes. bloody hell. eudiometry (combustion thingy). fuck, why didn't i ask someone yesterday when i didn't know how to calculate its molecular formula, or whatever crap they were asking for? i did kiss those marks goodbye. electrolysis. it's over. why couldn't i think properly? is my mind really that chocked up by all those mucus? or perhaps it's just my stupidity.

i thought i could have neglect a little for econs, but i guess not. i shall just go and have my lunch, shower and study harder for econs. study my frustrations away.

♥ lost for words and i drift.

a sense of relief?

chemistry paper 3 and economics paper 3 is gone. should i feel relieved? chemistry not that much of a relief. the paper wasn't that difficult, if only i work harder. chemistry paper 1 and 2 confirm super hard lah. and damn, i think i forgot lots of chem, because i had to memorize like hell for econs! hahaha. i feel a little relieved for econs. at least, now i don't have to spit out all the information. left only mcq and drq! hahaha, just need to practise mcq! haha. ms jeeva says the tys is your textbook. haha, anyway, i only wish for an AO pass for econs! A level pass also can! ((:

anyway, RAINMAKER by iron maiden is damn good! hahaha.

When I was wandering in the desert
And was searching for the truth
I heard a choir of angels calling out my name
I had the feeling that my life would never be the same again
I turned my face towards the barren sun

And I know of the pain that you feel the same as me
And I dream of the rain as it falls upon the leaves
And the cracks in our lives like the cracks upon the ground
They are sealed and are now washed away

You tell me we can start the rain
You tell me that we all can change
You tell me we can find something to wash the tears away
You tell me we can start the rain
You tell me that we all can change
You tell me we can find something to wash the tears.....

And I know of the pain that you feel the same as me
And I dream of the rain as it falls upon the leaves
And the cracks in the ground like the cracks are in our lives
They are sealed and now far away.

♥ lost for words and i drift.

oh why do i have a sore throat? ):

SUMMARY for the 3 papers i screwed up by my lonesome self.

screwed for maths. the one i thought i could bang on for an a level pass.. totally. if i've known it was this difficult. hell i wouldn't have wasted the 5 days on it. then i would have more time for econs or chem. and now, i lack the time to complete chem and econs... WHICH ONE TO EMPHASIZE ON? frankly, i have no idea. chem is hard. memorizing everything is one difficult task. damn, after trying like 3 questions from the past year promos, DEMORALISING shit! i am traumatized by mid years. i started chem first, and i just just just just just passed for it. ): econs is hard as well. being able to memorize the facts is one thing. being able to UNDERSTAND the bloody question is other. and writing and drawing the damn graphs is a whole different matter. econs midyear, the first question was there for you to vomit out everything you now. during the previous econs lecture, they went through the promos 2004. and honestly, before they went through, i had ZERO idea what is it!!! i am doomed. can i pray for a miracle to happen?

screwed gp too. what the hell was i writing for the compo?? Title: "To what extent is technology responsible for crime today?" i have no idea if it is out of point? hahaha. compre! ah! damn, i purposely set aside half an hour on the aq?? and..................... it requires us to take 2 education reform from the passage for i don't know whatever reason because i think it doesn't link? i'm a failure!

i have nothing to say about chinese. only, i didn't study which is okay. because it's un-study-able! hahaha. only that, i felt like SLEEPING and NOT DOING paper 2! it's really a waste of my time. compo at least you don't have to READ stuff. you just write any crap that pops into your mind!! haha.

♥ lost for words and i drift.

Kristal Chan. 18. 120988.
nickname: spongebob. BTH. plucks/strums (classical) guitar.
plmgss. 4B1. handbells.
first three months - nyjc. 05S6E [1st3mths]. 05S5B. judo.
loves blink 182, linkin park and mcr. music is a great way to blast away the frustrations.
#1 rock IDOL => g4v! wants to BEG g4v to teach me to play the electric guitar after j2 shit! ((:
longs to have an electric guitar plus an amplifier.
wants to go round the world to sample ALL the types of CHEESE.

calendar.
+ a level :S (2 nov to 17 nov)
+ after a's: going crazy! having fun with clique!
+ 28 nov: mum's birthday
+ 1 dec: cheryl's birthday
+ 30 nov - 3 dec: guangzhou
+ 5 dec: prom :S
+ 11 dec - 14 dec: church camp
+ photography
+ learning to play electric guitar



BTH.
buffaLOW.
BIG head.
AYE.
monkey.
wengs.

3B1 (2003)/4B1 (2004).
Cheryl Wee.
Eleanor.
Freesia.
Janice.
Pearlly.
Shirin.
Ting En.
Vanessa Chue.
Winnie.

Handbells.
Annabel.
Elizabeth Eng.
Hui Zi.
Jing Hui.
Lena.
Maureen. [piglet]
Melissa Chua.
Melissa Png.
Pearl.
Pearly.
PL Handbells Alumni.
Qian Ru.
Wan Yi aka mlfcp.

sfivebees.
sfivebees blog! (:
Hui Ting. [darling]
Jamie.
Jolene.
Kimsoon the great.=)
Samuel.
Weifang.
Xin Li's 1st.
Xin Li's 2nd.

Others.
Angela. [DEAREST]
Baby Caleb.
Colleen.
DEBBIE!
Jasmine Wee.
Jessica.
Jeslin.
Kelli. [senior?]
Kitsoon.
Michelle. [tall babe]
Peizhi.
*philicia(:(:(:
QinQi.
Rachel Lim.
Ruth.
Shufen.
tingyi.
Vivian Tan.
Wan Jie.
Weekeat.
Wen Qi.
Zong Xia. [MY LOVELY GF]

Sites.

Blink 182 lyrics.
Blogger.
Blog skins.
Friendster.
Guitar Tabs.
Haloscan.
Imagestation.
Linkin Park lyrics.
Linkin Park tabs.
Madblast.
mp3 shits.
Msealsmusic.
my dusty blogdrive account.
Nanyang JC webbie.
Yahoo.


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omg, i can't live without haloscan. ):



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