Monday, September 25, 2006 @11:48 PM
don't know why, i suddenly freaked when i saw the announcement on litespeed, it triggered me. i guess it's because i'm going to get back chem p3 tml, and quite frankly, i'm not prepared. hmmm i guess p1 results had a little something to do with it, p1 results shows how much effort i put in for chem, and through it, i was given a wake-up call, i didn't put much effort. but it's really too late. sighs. anyway, after talking to nessa and my spendthrift junior, i feel a little better after letting it out. it was just a moment of fear.
just, i was talking to nessa about me being scared about receiving my chem p2 and p3 results tml. i told her about my break cause i was telling her how i didn't do the chem thing that i'm suppose to do for tml, though i had a long break. 7 whole days have just passed me. i know it's abit too late to regret not utilizing this well. i know it's alright to relax and enjoy myself after the exams. i have just come to realized that it's 7 days! did i overdo my relaxation? do i deserve such a long break? i didn't study hard, and i thought i would push myself to study this break, at least a little. but all i did was rot at home and left my books far away from me. the countdown clock at the ny website doesn't comfort me one bit. please don't go take a look at it, it's stupid. sighs, i'm a failure to an a level student. i did nothing to what perrine told me, time management, and consistency! (shit i keep complaining about this being the end of me but i do nothing. damn it.)
⥠lost for words and i drift.