Tuesday, July 25, 2006 @6:15 PM
hmmm, it makes me wonder if i'm really insensitive. it's bugging me to know that any thing, big or small, could lead to such drastic and undesirable consequences, especially when i did it unconciously, maybe i've resulted in other consequences because of my actions. i feel guilty. i think i need to be more careful with words around my school friends from now on. i think i shall start restricting myself to a certain conduct in school and try to talk lesser, perhaps in this way, i can be less tactless and prevent any such things from happening again. (even dawn and marisca realized it today) hmmm, if only life was simple, and unhappy things just blow over! but they don't. and i just can't deal with things when it happens to me, but i have to learn to, i can't always depend on my solitaire showdown buddy -rebecca whenever i face something. i have to think and learn it on my own. and school is becoming boring and stressful in most aspects. i have done none of the 4 thermodynamics tutorials and they finished going through everything alr :S i have not started on revision, except, today i did
IDEAL GASES. i'm particularly quite happy i went through the topic, cause i always avoided reading it and only rmb
pV=nRT formula. and also, i feel satisfied that i started on my first topic, maybe tml two? haha.
i miss bth, each and everyone of them - [condensed] szehui (my beloved sec 3/4 partner and was a good listener), nessa (my sec 4 partner who laughs absolutely loudly), elaine/monkey (my 53 mate whose voice tops nessa's. i surprisingly miss her AYEs), jas (the one who thrashes me in minesweeper and a good listening ear), wanwen (well-known for her long talks, BUT i still enjoy them nonetheless), cheryl/spidey (the ps queen! jkjk. she's so busy with her stuff, but has been there for me), vonne (who's so cute and lovable), bel (BREADman! she's always drained by her dumbdumb band! the kindest person i've known) and faya (it's so long since we last met! somewhat miss her embarrassing things she do). it's been too long that i almost forgot that no one else out there can be think like them, and just ignore the rubbish that comes out of my mouth! my clique just rock and they are the best! i alr miss getting "high" with them and start being crazy and saying stupid no-link stuff (i know it's no-link when cheryl gives me the "huh-you-make-no-sense-and-you-are-laughing-at-your-own-nonsense"look). i love joking around with them, sometimes we will group up to poke fun someone and suddenly the tables are turned and i get poked fun at! such harmless fun! i feel so casual around them (although there's a slight danger i might get laughed at sometimes, oh well it's alright), as they are with me, i hope? haha! i'm glad that i have them regardless of what happen. and i'll always be there for each and everyone of them, anytime and anywhere.
⥠lost for words and i drift.