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Wednesday, July 12, 2006 @8:37 PM

haha, hmmm, what a day. i've never felt so sad and disappointed in my life for a school-related/cca-related thing! yeah, what a day, i felt so sad and overwhelmed with disappointment about the loss that i almost felt like crying. yes i know, though i didn't play, but still somehow i felt very sad, but not sad for the school, but sad for the team, the players! especially felt alot of the girls' team. after all, i've trained with them for so long (slack behind them and try my best to resist so that i won't fall easily)! yeah, the sadness from their faces and how they just broke down and cried after they lost, i wanted to just cry with them, but that would make them feel worse right! so i held them back. i was helpless, or perhaps useless, cause i couldn't tell them any words of encouragement, i couldn't do anything to make them feel better, which suck. how can i tell them everything will be better when they wake up the next day and it isn't? it's just so sad. oh well, i really think all of them did exceptionally well (: and i'm proud with them, and as coach sulaimon said, it's just that luck wasn't with us this time! i really feel that way, especially for the last matches for both the guys' and girls' team! it's like mocking us and dangling victory at our faces and swiftly taking away. it's cruel.
i felt extremely offended by ms ong, wtf, she didn't find out if the weighing scale was not working properly? i'm pretty sure that weighing scale is not working well, as in, it has never worked well before! but judo has CHEAPSKATE weighing machines. it's a tradition! whatever, no one can gain weight just like that? and it's not only her whose weight got screwed? if she was saying that i never check my weight and not being responsible, that i can accept, cause i really didn't! but i can't stand it when she said that qinqi! really felt like giving a smack in the face! whatever lah, come on lah, no one would do this on purpose! i can't believe she said that, i really felt angry! what a sucker. haha, hmmm, yes, qinqi DISLOCATED her little toe! oh so poor thing, and sulaimon "located" it back for her in a painful way! how can it not be painful?
anyway, overall, the team did well! (: none of you should feel sad, and don't feel responsible in any way! cause you guys did well! nothing should tell you otherwise! NY JUDO rocks! especially for the girl's team, cause i'm sorta part of it! whoever begs to differ, well, i've got nothing to say to you, cause it's a waste of my time and breath on you! haha!
the last time i put on the gi, it's a weird feeling! it didn't feel like any other time! i can say, i sort of miss judo! hmmm, judo, indeed i lost my passion for it quite awhile ago, but today made me sort of rekindle the feel for judo! i love ny judo team's spirit! ((: i felt so passionate and bonded for judo today! yeah, though we didn't get anything today, it was fun to eat and bond for the last time with fellow judokas! and i gave rebecca a poem (which kinda suck as a poem)!

♥ lost for words and i drift.

& PROFILE


Kristal Chan. 18. 120988.
nickname: spongebob. BTH. plucks/strums (classical) guitar.
plmgss. 4B1. handbells.
first three months - nyjc. 05S6E [1st3mths]. 05S5B. judo.
loves blink 182, linkin park and mcr. music is a great way to blast away the frustrations.
#1 rock IDOL => g4v! wants to BEG g4v to teach me to play the electric guitar after j2 shit! ((:
longs to have an electric guitar plus an amplifier.
wants to go round the world to sample ALL the types of CHEESE.

calendar.
+ a level :S (2 nov to 17 nov)
+ after a's: going crazy! having fun with clique!
+ 28 nov: mum's birthday
+ 1 dec: cheryl's birthday
+ 30 nov - 3 dec: guangzhou
+ 5 dec: prom :S
+ 11 dec - 14 dec: church camp
+ photography
+ learning to play electric guitar


& LINKS

BTH.
buffaLOW.
BIG head.
AYE.
monkey.
wengs.

3B1 (2003)/4B1 (2004).
Cheryl Wee.
Eleanor.
Freesia.
Janice.
Pearlly.
Shirin.
Ting En.
Vanessa Chue.
Winnie.

Handbells.
Annabel.
Elizabeth Eng.
Hui Zi.
Jing Hui.
Lena.
Maureen. [piglet]
Melissa Chua.
Melissa Png.
Pearl.
Pearly.
PL Handbells Alumni.
Qian Ru.
Wan Yi aka mlfcp.

sfivebees.
sfivebees blog! (:
Hui Ting. [darling]
Jamie.
Jolene.
Kimsoon the great.=)
Samuel.
Weifang.
Xin Li's 1st.
Xin Li's 2nd.

Others.
Angela. [DEAREST]
Baby Caleb.
Colleen.
DEBBIE!
Jasmine Wee.
Jessica.
Jeslin.
Kelli. [senior?]
Kitsoon.
Michelle. [tall babe]
Peizhi.
*philicia(:(:(:
QinQi.
Rachel Lim.
Ruth.
Shufen.
tingyi.
Vivian Tan.
Wan Jie.
Weekeat.
Wen Qi.
Zong Xia. [MY LOVELY GF]

Sites.

Blink 182 lyrics.
Blogger.
Blog skins.
Friendster.
Guitar Tabs.
Haloscan.
Imagestation.
Linkin Park lyrics.
Linkin Park tabs.
Madblast.
mp3 shits.
Msealsmusic.
my dusty blogdrive account.
Nanyang JC webbie.
Yahoo.

& ARCHIVES

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& ARTICULATE

omg, i can't live without haloscan. ):



& CREDITS

this layout was done by jeanette. the fonts were from dafont,image was from threadless and brushes were from 100x100.pls do not take out the credits. :]