Wednesday, March 22, 2006 @11:10 PM
just read some of judokas (those with blogs) post on today's (nationals individual) competition. so i guess, i might asw well post about today! indeed, it was quite disappointing to see the fellow guys and girls to lose their matches before my very own! it is like, how can that be possible? these fellow judokas are so much more skilled than me! and it demoralized me, if they could lose by such a small margin, what will be in it for me? bout 18! i feared my name being read out of the speaker system. i was pretty nervous.
my first opponent - nicola (
brown belter) her belt level
comforts me. i'm already so unskilled, how am i suppose to get through the match? haha, heard that she's pretty big size, got more scared, but she really isn't that big! haha. she seemed pretty alright to me. anyway, disappointed with myself, even though can hardly rmb much of the match (as usual) and even though it was a short one [under one stupid minute]! i know i fell to the ground. i stunned for a couple of seconds, cause i thought we could get up, but she suddenly pin my down for ground work! i feel
EXTREMELY stupid. really, how can someone fight in a match and not know the proper rules? i thought that once YOU are out of the red mats, the pin is invalid. however, only when the opponent is out then it's considered! i was so freaking near the mats! i could have gotten out! regret that moment of "stunning". what is wrong with me? retarded me. haha. oh well, it's too over to regret!
my second opponent - vicky (fight for the joint third for middle weight) i felt more nervous than the previous match! don't know really know how to explain the increased nervousness i was feeling. anyway, before that, qinqi fought vicky (and naturally won - our source of hope and glory for the nyjc judo team), i saw vicky and i felt that she was fighting as if she was mad (okay, that's a pretty insenstive and judgemental) and thought that lucky she isn't my opponent! but guess what, i had to fight her for joint third! YAY! fight the one i hope i won't fight! haha. anyway, seriously, i have no brain during a judo match. or maybe my nervous feeling (before fighting vicky) killed the remaining brain cells! i can't think! i somehow didn't rmb my techniques, advices and anything! what happen to what qinqi advised me on briefly before the match? "ALWAYS front breakfall" argh, why do i keep falling on my back? fat ass. haha, anyway, lost by groundwork again! the only reason why i'm able to last so long it's because of the 25sec groundwork :D what a loser.
haha, okay enough about me and whiny comments. haha. i'm really proud of everyone! the fighting spirit was not too bad, despite the stress everyone must have been experiencing (judo and block tests!) if only that dumb ass fbb knew it. only cared about the medals. haha, anyway, shiyun rocks! she's a winner in my heart! fight super well. jeslin, rebecca, jasmine! they put up a tough fight! jeslin stayed the whole 3mins! and had the golden throw nonsense - it's a lousy rule (haha)! anyway, you rock! the guys were good! as sulaiman said, "luck ain't on our side", pretty true, the guys were always leading and suddenly lost. qinqi is the ultimate! she's the best! haha! THE HOPE AND GLORY - the pride each and everyone has, she's the source of it, esp. today! haha.
⥠lost for words and i drift.