Thursday, October 06, 2005 @12:05 PM
the way i did the chemistry mcq today spells out stupidity and careless. but, it is mostly stupidity. you may try to comfort me. or you may not. but i know that i am really stupid.
HOW CAN I POSSIBLY MISS ONE QUESTION? question 19 is stabbing me in the heart, so softly and yet so painfully. i'm not upset over that mark. trust me, i wouldn't. something else far worse worries the hell out of me. did i shade question 20 onto question 19's
"little rectangular box" and subsquently the rest onto the wrong question's
"little rectangular boxes"? or what i want now is that i didn't do the above and i just missed it and left question 19's
"little rectangular box" blank. and why don't i know whether i did either of the above? that's because of my carelessness. ever since primary school, i have check the
OTAS sheet at least twice. check if i did all the questions.. check if i ended at question 40. check if the answers on the
OTAS sheet corresponds to the booklet..
BUT for some bloody
reason, for the first time in my life (a little exaggeration),
i didn't even look at it after doing it. perhaps i was anxious about the paper 2? perhaps i had
something on my mind (like perhaps they were going to bloody announce the answers to the mcqs)? perhaps the
mucus clogged up my brain and causing me to not think straight? the thing is,
i had the TIME to check it, but i didn't! how much bloody time could i take to check if i did 40 questions? AH!
i wished they didn't announce the answers to the mcqs, then i wouldn't fret over whether i shade the right
"little rectangular boxes".
it's killing me! if i really shade wrongly from question 19 (which i am 70% sure i did), i would really lose a lot of marks. i could have gotten fairly good marks. but,
i've gotten a special grade for chemistry mcq - SC, which stands for stupidly careless. i'm truly frustrated over this!the way i did the chemistry short answer (paper 2) was utterly disappointing. the paper isn't difficult. the questions is there WAITING for me to fill up the correct answers. but somehow i just can't seem to answer them correctly. gas pressures question, the marks just flew by me. i guess i should have looked at the lecture notes. bloody hell. eudiometry (combustion thingy). fuck, why didn't i ask someone yesterday when i didn't know how to calculate its molecular formula, or whatever crap they were asking for? i did kiss those marks goodbye. electrolysis. it's over. why couldn't i think properly? is my mind really that
chocked up by all those mucus? or perhaps it's just my stupidity.
i thought i could have neglect a little for econs, but i guess not. i shall just go and have my lunch, shower and study harder for econs.
study my frustrations away.
⥠lost for words and i drift.