Wednesday, September 28, 2005 @8:27 PM
I'm ignorant.
I've been pampered all these while.
I'm really glad i'm always have priviledges of sleeping in.
Why? I woke up at 5.10am today. And for the first time i took a gamble, i ventured out of the house at 5.35am into a
new world. One that have been oblivious to me for the past 17 years and 16 days.
Like a baby first opening its eyes, i open mine to the world i never knew today. I realized that some buses services actually start at 5.34am! And i thought to myself, the bus driver have to actually be there much earlier than us and chauffeur passengers around. And yes, there were actually passengers! People were off to work, and usually i would have been in bed, and even at 6.35am, i would beg for more sleep. I've been truly
pampered. As i walk to the bus stop, the breeze smelt fresh perhaps due to the little environmentally unfriendly vehicles. I reached the bus stop. I boarded 53. The atmosphere in the air-conditioned bus was cold and threatening. I don't know why, but i just felt that way. Then, i saw the another bus driver waving friendly towards another. I don't know why again, but i just had this warm feeling. Something that perk me up on this cold morning.
Strangers are often hostile to people whom they feel insecure around. Which (mostly) those they view as suspicious. One which i experience it yesterday whereby my friends and i labelled someone as suspicious. He was truly there with an ulterior motive. Another is today, where i made 2 "strangers" feel unsafe. This is because, i entered
pl grounds in my home attire. After staring at what i wore and clarifying i wasn't the student, the 2 teachers asked me to leave. I really do not blame them. I didn't bother to defend that i was an ex-student. It's not that i'm afraid, i just didn't want to make it a big thing. It's the same reason as why i didn't want to see those teachers i knew, i had no wish to tell the teachers i was here to deliver a present. Not because i'm embarrassed, not because i was afraid. I just want to keep things as simple as possible, no complications. Deliver and leave silently. Just like that.
Anyway, saw hou lao shi! haha, surprisingly she recognized me!
((: haha. super happy. but i know she has forgetten my name (coz i rememeber her telling us that she often forgets her ex-students' names but NOT their face)! haha.
I feel like a fool. I should have kept my mouth shut since i always blabber nonsense in the morning. I really can't think straight in the morning! my brain slows down by 50%! And I've truly become directionless today. It's not that i didn't know that the 156 bus stop is near the school! ): i feel dumb! haha.
anyway,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ANNABEL!! hahaha.
sorry didn't talk to you much! haha. we shall catch up after our exams okay? haha. (: and thanks for the belated present! super duper nice! i'm a
star!
⥠lost for words and i drift.